Wednesday, February 22, 2017

Nursery Reveal

Tomorrow I will be thirty nine weeks and we finally finished the nursery this past weekend! I had a lot of fun with this room working with new items and old. Her room is filled with items from both our childhoods which make it even more special. My first bible that my Grandparents gave me, my piano from my mom, new books and old books from Colin's childhood. His stuffed sheep he has had since he was a baby. Not to mention some of the beautiful vintage and vintage inspired items that make this room so dreamy. Hope you enjoy!

She is more precious than rubies
Proverbs 3:15

Tuesday, January 10, 2017

Nine Years

Every year I look back and wonder how the heck we even got here today! A young couple in love defying the odds that people set for us and always overcoming (not always easy but ALWAYS worth it). Now we have celebrated nine years of marriage and are waiting the arrival of our daughter! Something we truly didn't think would ever happen for us. 

The past 8 months we have grown even more closer and in love. Having a baby really does change so much! Lost friends, made new ones, set boundaries to protect our growing family (pissed a few people off with that one), learned to love someone more than ourselves (and I have a feeling we only scratched the surface of that one), learned that someone ALWAYS has an opinion on how you should raise your child (in one ear and out the other! Or if your anything like me you tell them how you really feel. LOL!), mourning the loss of family interaction (it has been so hard knowing that our baby girl will not be a priority in some of our families life) and learning that God is ALWAYS in control despite what we think or feel.

All that said... here we are! Nine years later and seven weeks (give or take) till we meet our daughter and we start a whole another journey! 

God has perfect timing; never early, never late.
It takes a little patience and a whole lot of faith...
But it's worth the wait.
- author unknown

Friday, October 14, 2016

It's A GIRL!

After many, many years we are so excited to announce that we are having a little girl! Mommy is already spoiling her with clothes and other shopping and Daddy added black powder, gun oil, and a lifetime subscription to the NRA to his Christmas list! 

We had a blast at our photo shoot with Little Skull Photography! We wanted to announce in a fun and creative way. I mean come on! If you know us at all you know we don't just half ass it! LOL! They were great from the creative brain storming to the execution ! They took care of everything! 

Friday, January 3, 2014

Family Photos 2013

Better late than never...

This year my good friend Brookelyn Cote took our family pictures. Here are a few of our favorites :)

Wednesday, November 20, 2013

The smell of oranges in the air

On the way to taking my hubby to work we passed the Tropicana plant like we do every morning... 

Though this morning the smell of oranges filled the air. Something that we have not encountered for many months. 

Another reminder that fall is here!

In that very moment of realizing the smell of fresh oranges was back for the season was a feeling of 'familiar' and when I feel familiar with something it makes me feel comfort and a sence of home.

Another little God wink that I am home... 

Sunday, November 17, 2013

I'm still into you...

 Six years and going strong and still into him!

That's right six years ago today Colin and I got married! We had no idea what we were 'really' getting into (I don't think anyone really knows what they are getting into when they get married) but all we knew and all that mattered was that we loved Jesus and we loved each other.

It's been a ride to say the least but looking back I would not change a thing! All that has happened has made us stronger and more in love each day! I am truly blessed and thankful for my husband.  I really don't know what I would do with out him. Who would I vent to when I have had a bad day? Who would fix things around the house or open jars for me? Who would love me as much as he does? Who would encourage me not to give up when I have my 'sick days' and feel like I am not going to make it? Who would make me 'Jenn safe' food?!

Can't count the years on one hand 
That we've been together
I need the other one to hold you.
Make you feel, make you feel better.
It's not a walk in the park
To love each other.
But when our fingers interlock,
Can't deny, can't deny you're worth it

Cause after all this time.
I'm still into you

I should be over all the butterflies
But i'm into you (I'm into you)
And baby even on our worst nights
I'm into you (I'm into you)
Let them wonder how we got this far
Cause I don't really need to wonder at all
Yeah after all this time
I'm still into you

Recount the night that I first
Met your mother
And on the drive back to my house
I told you that, I told you that I loved ya.
You felt the weight of the world
Fell off your shoulder
And to your favorite song
We sang along to the start of forever

And after all this time.
I'm still into you

I should be over all the butterflies
But i'm into you (I'm into you)
And baby even on our worst nights
I'm into you (I'm into you)
Let them wonder how we got this far
Cause I don't really need to wonder at all
Yeah after all this time
I'm still into you

Some things just,
Some things just make sense
And one of those is you and I
Some things just,
Some things just make sense
And even after all this time
I'm into You
Baby not a day goes by that
I'm not into you

I should be over all the butterflies
But i'm into you (I'm into you)
And baby even on our worst nights
I'm into you (I'm into you)
Let them wonder how we got this far
Cause I don't really need to wonder at all
Yeah after all this time
I'm still into you
I'm still into you
I'm still into you

Paramore - Still Into You 

Happy Anniversary Babe! I Love you!

Sunday, August 11, 2013

Baby Drama - Part Two

I hope no one is offended with me calling this series “Baby Drama” because if you know me and know how much we want a baby, you know that by calling this “Baby Drama” I am laughing and this is a good thing!

In my past baby drama post I wrote about the drama month after month of finding out that I’m not pregnant.

Now the baby drama just got even more drama filled…

I have always had extremely painful periods and have a long family history of this and early hysterectomies.  In the past two years, the pain has gotten worse and twice now the pain was so bad that I passed out.  So, off to the doctor we went to make sure that everything was okay…

My family doctor said that it sounded like endometriosis and she ordered a transabdominal and tansvaginal pelvic ultrasound.  Yes, not going to lie this was a bit awkward! The findings from this were that I have two uterine Fibroids and multiple small ovarian cysts that are consistent with age.  (Way to rub it in that I will be 30 in a few days! LOL!)

What scared me the most about this was that I had no idea what any of this doctor talk meant or what was really going on in my body!  To add to it all, my family Doctor was not giving me the right answers AT ALL!  They went from “this could be causing a problem with getting pregnant” to “if you are trying to get pregnant we would not remove these” WHAT THE HECK?!?!?!?

Then it was off to the OB to get a second opinion that opened a whole other door and so many more questions…

My OB said that the uterine fibroids and cysts were not the problem, but more than likely it was endometriosis AND through talking more about the struggle with my hormone imbalance and viewing my charting for the past 9 months (thank youLeslie for sharing charting with me!) he didn’t think that I was ovulating.  Apparently, ovulating plays a HUGE part in getting pregnant... HAHAHA!

This then lead to LOTS of blood work.  I am still waiting on my final blood work to come back which will tell us if I am ovulating.  If I am not ovulating they will put me on meds to help me start and if I am then we talk about surgery and going in to clean everything up….
So there it is! Colin and I have both been struggling with this. I have had many painful days and many depressed days.  It has been frustrating to get our questions answered to only turn around and have 20 more questions to ask…

BUT we know that God has got this!!! Please pray for us and our Doctors.

Colin’s Notes:

As a husband, the desire to protect my wife from pain and hurt is very strong… although I have not had to deal with the crippling pain in my abdomen that causes vomiting and loss of conciseness; I have felt completely helpless when Jenn goes thru that pain.  In my almost six years of being a husband, nothing has bothered me more than not being able to help Jenn go a whole month without crippling physical pain or, (more recently) the emotional and reoccurring pain of not being pregnant month after month.

As a testament to how wonderful and loving Jenn is, she is almost always the one to remind me that everything is within God’s plan for our lives and that even though we don’t know every detail we have faith that he loves us and wants the best for us.  I am constantly in awe of her quiet, inner strength and even though our family has not grown in members since Winston arrived, there is absolutely more love.

Our prayer is for God’s blessing in our lives, a complete and sustained health for all members of our family, knowledge and inspiration for our doctors, strength to endure hardships, and wisdom to slow down and enjoy all the wonderful things that are already in our lives.

Sunday, July 7, 2013

Baby Drama!

That is exactly what it is BABY DRAMA! Sleepless nights because I’m hoping, wishing and praying that I’m pregnant. Getting ready for work in the morning and starring at your stomach wondering if I’m putting on weight because I’m pregnant (or hoping, wishing and praying that I am) or just putting on some pounds because you I am eating more. Why am I eating more?!?!? Yeah…like I said BABY DRAMA! Oh and don’t even get me started on how many times a day I look, study and analyze my charting that I have been doing for 8 months now….

This month was another let down… Not pregnant… I’m not even sure how to explain how hard finding out month after month that you are not pregnant. For me it’s devastating. There are so many times that I cry myself to sleep or the times that I ball in my husband’s arms. All I want is to be a mom. The Lord has already blessed me with being a wife so why can’t I be a mom yet?! I know all things are in His timing, but come on now! Can your timing and mine timing be on the same schedule for once!? I have been waiting YEARS for this (and please do not sit here and tell me I need to see a fertility doctor, the next person to say that to me is going to be sorry!)

Did I mention that this post is going to be very real?

When I was in Michigan this past May I went and saw my Natural Path, which he told me that my adrenals where stressed and not working properly therefore it was bringing my thyroid down which was throwing off my hormones…. And why I have not been getting pregnant.  I also have an auto immune disorder (a thyroid disease) and many food allergies (gluten, dairy, soy, corn & nitrates/sulfates). Gluten causes infertility as well as your thyroid not being leveled. I also come from a line of women that all had early hysterectomies and experienced terrible and sometimes horrible periods which have not been easy for me as well. So yeah, I have a lot again me BUT it is all fixable! It’s just going to take time that I don’t have the patience for and LOTS of prayers.

I have some testing this week that I have been putting off because I was 99% sure I was pregnant, but now that I am not I’m going forward with the testing. I’m a bit nervous about it but at the same time trying not to consume me.  

Hoping, wishing & praying that next month this will be a completely different blog post, but until then (as my dear friend Leslie said…) I need time to regroup and heal.

Thursday, August 16, 2012

date night & sweet cinnamon crunch

Friday nights are date nights here at the Ellsworth household. Most date nights we try to get out of the house but sometimes a date night in is just want we need ;)

I am a action movie junkie and the Bourne movies are one of my favorites! So it was only fitting that we have a date night in to watch all three Bourne movies and prepare ourselves for The Bourne Legacy!
So a date night in/Bourne marathon it was.

What is a movie without pop corn? Well in our household there is no popcorn.

I know...BUMMER!

I have an allergy to corn so popcorn is out of the question. I have been racking my brain trying to figure out what munchies we could have that are "Jenn safe" and I can up with this...

I am calling it:

 Sweet Cinnamon Crunch

What you will need...

4 cups of rice chex (I used the brand from Aldi)

1/4 cup butter (I used butter substitute to make it diary free)

1/4 cup honey (you can use more or less depending on how sweet you want it)

2 teaspoons vanilla


1.) Preheat your oven to 300 degrees

2.) in a pan melt butter then combine honey and vanilla

3.) In a large bowl pour butter/honey/vanilla mixture over the cereal until evenly combined.

4.) Spread on cookie sheet and sprinkle with cinnamon

5.) put in oven for 15-20 minutes

6.) ENJOY!!!

What does your date night look like?

Tuesday, December 6, 2011

Family: A very special package

Let me tell you about a very special man in my life…my Grandpa Chmurynski (my mom’s father).  Since my dad was absent all of my life I only knew my grandpa as my father figure (plus two great uncles).  He took me in and raised me (with the help of my mom and the rest of my family) as if I was his own.  Okay he spoiled me as I was the only grandchild and grandpa’s little girl!
I have been asked many times if I felt like I missed out on having my father around and to this day my answer is this…
NO! I had the BEST father figure that anyone could ask for. This is what I knew growing upand still know to this day. He protected me and loved me.  I would not change anything even if I could go back in time.
September 2009 my grandpa passes away.  I had the honour of being by his side until his last breath.
Today I received a very special package and Christmas present from my mom. 

My grandpa’s war picture framed…

The back side is clear so you can see the names written on it
Battery A 665th Field Artillery Battalion
Camp San Luis Obispo California 
The names of the soldiers

Mom, thank you for this amazing gift! I love you!
Now where to hang it?!?!?!?!?!?!